i have a lot of things going for me recently but a lot have been taken away as well.

when grandmother passed away last year, i tried my best to keep myself together. she was one of the brightest spots in my life and i felt as though i have to go on a barely lit world forever without her.  

a few months ago, my younger brother passed away at the age of 21. i lost words and i felt utterly stupid being left behind.

i felt as though i died with them. only i wasn't buried.